Day 5 - 10/14/18
Updated: Jan 17, 2019
Church was good today. It was a little different for me because I feel like my focus is now changed. I may just be overthinking it, but I feel more appreciative of everything around me. My focus is shifting to listening more intently for God's voice. I want to make sure that this experience will help me to truly listen to Him and be obedient to His direction.
This next week is going to be pretty busy. I'm ready to find out the details of my treatment, as well as, find out more about the cancer inside of me. Seems weird that something so tiny will be transforming my life. I know the magnitude of what my body is going to go through is drastic. Nevertheless, I'm ready. I'm ready to begin the treatment process so I can get it over with. I'm ready to walk into my healing, and hopefully get everything from this experience that God has designed for me to get.
This evening I am feeling a little emotionally drained. I believe it's because of anxiety about next week. So for the rest of the night, I will be meditating on my favorite scripture--Psalms 91.
"He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust." Psalms 91: 1 - 2 KJV