Day 14 - 10/23/18
It looks like my doctor is still waiting on approvals from the insurance company, so chemo will not start tomorrow. I'm kind of disappointed with not being able to start tomorrow. I'm eager to start because I know the sooner I start, the sooner I can finish. Oh well. If I have learned nothing else from this entire experience, it should be that I have control over NOTHING, except my faith. It's cute that I have to learn this lesson over and over.... and each time I learn it, it surprises me. Go figure!
On the lighter side of things though..... My company is having a "Pink Out" day tomorrow. This is in honor of "Breast Cancer Awareness" month. It's really cool to see our entire department covered TOTALLY in pink. Every cubicle, every pole, every where you look--pink, pink, and more pink. In previous years, I paid homage to my sister. I was proud of her and her struggle. She was, and still is, my personal hero. This year, however, it makes me somewhat proud to add my name to the list of breast cancer survivors. Even though I haven't started my treatment yet, I still see myself as a survivor. And I look forward to being able to encourage others to not give up the fight to live just because they have been diagnosed with cancer.
For these last two weeks, I have been hearing so many amazing stories of survival. Stories of how doctors had given up..... medicine had given up...... family members had given up.... but God did not give up. Each story that I have heard has encouraged me to stay strong and not give up. And it is my deepest, strongest desire to encourage everyone that I can, to not give up. I pray that my journey will help to encourage others that the fight is not over until God says it's over. I want to be able to tell others, with confidence, "Keep fighting... With every breath that you have... Keep fighting."
In the meantime, since I won't have chemo tomorrow, I'll take the additional time to "prepare" and meditate on some of my favorite scriptures. I will use this additional time to get even closer to God.
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40: 31 KJV