Day 27 - 11/5/18
Count down to chemo—one day.
Today’s appointment was the sternum biopsy. This is the appointment I’ve been waiting for! After this, I am able to begin chemo. So, yayyyy! It’s finally here!
The biopsy appointment was first thing in the morning, so this made the wait for it even better. The only downsides to this procedure was having to fast from eating the night before and not being able to drive for 24 hours afterward. Both of these restrictions are because of the anesthesia. On a positive note, I did get some really good rest.
I’m not sure how long it will take my doctor to receive the results, but the most important thing, in this appointment, was getting the cells out of my body. The cells have to be removed before chemo could begin. The need for this procedure is to see if the cancer cells in my breast are the same type of cancer cells in my sternum. If they are, the chemo medications remain the same. If they are a different type of cancer cells, my doctor may need to add to or change my chemo medication.
After the anesthesia wore off, and I woke up from really good nap, the reality of chemo starting tomorrow has hit me. I’m on a small roller coaster ride of emotions ranging from anxiety to anticipation to eagerness and on to a small amount of fear. The anxiety is about not knowing what to expect from the chemo treatments. Will I have the same side effects as others? Will mine be better or worse? When will they start? When will they end? Then there’s the anticipation about beginning chemo. I’m looking forward to starting this process so it can be over. And then the eagerness is there because I’m ready to begin the healing process.
After running through all of the other emotions, a small amount of fear hits me. The true reality check is this entire process is a life changing event. I actually have cancer in my body... And my chemo starts tomorrow... I admit that this is a HUGE deal, and it can be overwhelming. But I’m also reminded that I’m not doing this alone. This is where having a strong support system is most important. Knowing I have a team of people praying for me and encouraging me in this fight is building my strength to fight. I absolutely love everyone that God has put into my life. They are being a blessing to me during this time, and I’m reminded of that, now more than ever! I love you Team Diana! :)
“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” Galatians 6: 2 NIV
“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” Matthew 5: 16 KJV