Day 34 - 11/12/18
6th Day after Chemo
Today I find myself awake more. The waves are still coming, but they do appear to be shorter, and there is definitely more time in between them. This gives me more opportunity to evaluate how I’m feeling—physically. I want to move around more, so I begin to do a little housework. Nothing too strenuous, but just enough to get me going.
My research of the "rash" instructs me to keep it moisturized. Of course I don't have any unscented lotion. That would be too easy, right? For now, I'll just use a little Vaseline, until I can get some unscented lotion. At least the itching is gone for now.
As lunchtime rolls around, I am grateful that my daughter made me homemade chicken soup, and the only thing I need to do to it is heat it up. As I am eating, I noticed that it doesn’t quite taste right. It seems like there is a funny taste to it, but I’m not really sure of what it is. My daughter is usually a pretty good cook, so it is odd that this soup doesn’t have a good taste to it.
During my meal, I was side-tracked by a phone call. When I ended the call and returned to eating, I realized what was going on. My taste buds are now different. So that’s why the soup isn’t tasting right. Okay. No taste buds. Wow. This is life-changing. No taste buds. How can I go on? I mean, what is the true meaning of life if you can’t enjoy food? No taste buds… As I process this new information, I realize that this is not the end of the world, and I can stop the drama session in my mind. Thank goodness I didn't go overboard with that one! :)
So I make myself a smoothie, and I realize that I CAN taste the fruit. Yay! So it's not ALL food! Later, for dinner, I have ginger chicken, rice and sautéed green beans. No luck with these three, but I’m hopeful because I can taste some flavors—just not all. So my journey within my journey will be to find out what things I can taste and what things I can’t. I can see how this can get frustrating, but at least I have something I can work with.
“Jesus answered, ‘The Scriptures say: “No one can live only on food. People need every word that God has spoken.”’” Matthew 4: 4 CEV