Day 71 - 12/19/18
2nd day after 3rd chemo treatment, and I am beginning to feel the effects of the chemo medications. I woke up a little later again today, and I can feel that the fatigue is settling in my body. I also had a small wave of pain shortly after I awakened. Thankfully, it went away after a short time period. At this point, I don’t believe I need to take anything for it.
Next up is the morning medications for nausea, diarrhea, and my fluids. Not realizing it, I dozed off again before I ate any breakfast. When I woke again, it was around noontime, and I was feeling drained. Listening to my body, I knew I needed some type of nourishment. I wasn’t feeling up to eating anything too heavy, so I decided on a smoothy and protein shake. This leads back into another nap.
Between wakefulness and sleep, I managed more meds and fluids, but I have been asleep for the most part of the day. I’m not complaining because I absolutely love to sleep, but during these times, I wish I had more energy. I feel like there’s more I should be doing. That’s the over-achiever in me talking. But I also hear the voices of all of the people fussing at me to not over-exert myself and to rest. I hate to admit it, but, yes, I hear them. :)
I am learning that I must listen to my body and take its cues on resting when I need to rest. That has not always been easy for me. I am used to pushing myself until I am completely drained… and then possibly pushing myself beyond that point—depending on what I was working on. This experience is helping me to change that. I have to set new priorities and boundaries in my life, as it pertains to my work and home life. I need to make sure that I am making and taking the time to do the things that I love to do and are important to me. We are given one life to live, and we should make sure we are living it to the fullest.
“Proverbs will teach you wisdom and self-control and how to understand sayings with deep meanings. You will learn what is right and honest and fair. From these, an ordinary person can learn to be smart, and young people can gain knowledge and good sense.” Proverbs 1: 2 - 4 CEV