Day 94 - 1/11/19
Today I’m spiraling downward to my lowest point. I haven’t hit rock-bottom yet, but the downward spiral has begun. I was almost fooled by the “calm” before the storm. During the calm, I didn’t feel the side-effects of the chemo. I calculated that they would be coming, but I still had hopes that I could bypass them.
The side-effects start off very mild, and increase over a period of 1-2 days. By day 2 after chemo, when I doze off to sleep, I don't feel them, but upon waking, they would be there. I am feeling the full effect of the chemo now, and I still have another day to go before I hit rock-bottom.
The waves… The pain… Everything centers in my stomach and reaches out to all other areas of my body. The wakefulness and sleep run together. I take some Tylenol for the pain, and I believe it’s helping. The fatigue is so overwhelming, though, I can’t say that I’m totally aware of what I’m feeling right now.
“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.” James 1: 12 NIV